Tuesday, April 06, 2010

I wish I was still in Hawaii

For the last few weeks I’ve been trying to force myself to like a guy I’ve been going out with. But I have never been able to date a guy if I am not totally into him. I’m not going to date a guy just to have somebody. Maybe I would have when I was younger, but I’m no longer 20 and I am not going to pretend and I am not willing to have a one night stand anymore just to get some. Anyway, going out with this guy has made me realize that it is probably only going to get harder to get into a serious relationship the older I get. I don’t want to give up any of the things I enjoy about being independent. And honestly, being alone doesn’t scare me most of the time. There are times when I definitely get lonely but not lonely enough to deal with a crappy relationship. Or a forced one for that matter. So I had to let another one go and now there is another person out there who thinks I am either a tease or a bitch. Sigh.


Anonymous said...

I get not being in a relationship with someone you are not that into, but no sex just to have sex?! What kind of alternate reality is that?

Michael5000 said...

Crappy relationships are crappy. Onwards and upwards!

Dr. Kenneth Noisewater said...

Might I recommend a series of crappy MINI-relationships?